my poyo dream

Just a simple story about my dream last night. lol...

Entah lah, mimpi itu terasa sunggguh real. As usual mimpi sal kawen. L.O.L

Kali ni mimpi tu bermula dengan pencarian calon oleh my mummy. hoho. 1st - 1st tu my mom memberitahu sal pertunangan aku dengan someone tak lama. Cam biasa diproted tapi my mom still dengan alasan 'bercinta selepas nikah'. ok fine, tapi biar aku kenal dulu kan? But my mom kata lepas tunang still boleh kenal. So nampaknya disitu aku sudah tiada kata untuk menolak. 

Persiapan majlis pertunangan aku ni dah macam majlis kawen pulak. Mana tidaknya, siap ada hantaran and ada pelamin kot. Semuanya buat sendiri tau! Katanya sebab aku anak perempuan sorang kena lah buat meriah sikit, bukan selalu. oh? Dua tiga hari sebelum tunang tu, my mom nak kenalkan kat aku kepada bakal tunang aku tu tanpa pengetahuan aku pada mulanya.

Pertemuan itu berlaku di sebuah mall (not sure which mall it is) huhu...
The awkward moment when mummy perkenalkan kepada 'bakal mak mertua' aku. haha? Time tu dengan tak ready nak terima kenyataan lagi dah jumpe bakal-bakal ni. Tanpa diduga aunty tu kata, tak sabar nak tunggu majlis kawen aku berlangsung. Dan aku terdengar my mom kata majlis pertunangan aku tu dah bertukar menjadi majlis kawen aku?what??!? my mom tak bincang dulu pun ngan aku! Sabar jelah, tak kan aku nak mengamuk depan aunty tu pulak kan, kena jaga air muka my mom jugak. Nampaknya aku kena belajar redha dan pasrah jelah terus dapat suami dalam 2 -3 hari lagi!. Lepas kenal-kenal ngan aunty tu keluarlah seorang lelaki nih. Perghh, berdebar giler aku time tu. "is it my future husband?" soal aku dalam hati sambil mengontrol muka. huhu. Aku hanya mampu memandang wajah lelaki itu dengan penuh debaran. Woit sape tak berdebarkan bila jumpa face-to-face laki yang tak dikenali tup2 jadi bakal suami pulak (debarnya macam real je walau ini hanya dalam mimpi)
" **** (x dgr nama ape) , panggil abang suruh dia ke sini" kata aunty a.k.a bakal mak mertua aku tuh. Oke thats mean budak tu adik 'dia' bukan dia yang sebenarnya. Lemah jantung aku boleh lah kalo selalu berdebar macam ni. Belum sempat adik dia panggil dia sudah muncul disebelah adiknya. Hoho. So he is?? Debaran aku kian bermula sekali lagi. Bagai nak luruh jantung aku bila my mom suruh aku n dia pergi shopping berdua, pilih barang nak letak atas hantaran. ok. what?!? Just me and him? why my mom, why should both of us? why u cant join us? gertak hatiku. hoho.
Dengan tidak semena-mena my mom and the aunty together with his son (adik dia) goin somewhere else. Officially kitorang jadi "dating" berdua. awkward..awkward. krikk...krikk...krikk. Dia pun tak tegur aku, aku lagilah malu nak tegur. hermm. I try to comfort my self. Aku tengok dia, aku cuba menganalisis mukanya. Aku try untuk mula menerima dia sebagai "someone" dalam hidupku nanti. Dari pandangan kasar aku, dia tak lah handsome tapi sedap mata memandang. hoho.... not bad la, selera aku boleh terima lagi. haha. macam demanding pulak aku ni. I take my first step ajak dia pegi beli barang. Jelaslah "kekekokkan" aku bila bersama dia. Yelah aku dengan tak biasa bercakap or berdating dengan lelaki, tengok2 hari ni kena dating terpaksa dengan bakal suami pulak tu...huuhu. Mimpi aku berakhir disitu je..huhu..sedey, ase macam nak tau je penyudah dia macam mana. I want to know what kind of man he is. huhu. 
As always, bangun2 tu aku cuba recall balik muka lelaki tu namun tiada imej yang muncul, dalam kadar ke blurran. Ase macam tak kenal je, kalo kenal mesti aku buat reaction lain dalam mimpi tu. hehe. Seriusly mimpi tu terasa macam real je. hermmm...

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The Grief

I crying….everyday im crying

But with this fake face, its still show that im smiling

Smiling to the world

Eventhough its looks hard

I can get through it

As I put my self in other shoes

Just think, just imagine…

Not only me experience the sadness

Everyone has gone through it

Maybe their problem is bigger than mine.

Why I must crying to much…

Nothing to do with it

Cry, cry, cry…

U must go away…

Try smiling to the world

Show that nothing happen

Thanks to this fake face….for making a ‘wall’ between happy n sadness

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it just a poem~

No one knows my depression

My life is so gray

No one to hold me

To say it'll be ok

These feelings I hate

They bring me pain

All from the world

That will never go away...

p/s: i miss her....

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Today you will cry but tomorrow you will smile :)

Time is a Wonderful Healer as God is time. He created time. He controls time. Everything moves according to His timetable, not ours.

Todays Ice will be tomorrows river!

So, when you are feeling down remember time, embrace time, embrace patience, embrace all love, embrace God, and embrace all that comes from God. Embrace every goodness. Most of all remember time, remember God.

Remember Gods words:

 “With every hardship there comes ease. Indeed with every hardship there comes ease.”

Its just a matter of time. So smile if you are sad because you are going to smile again. You’re loved by God. Time ticks for you.

Just Be Righteous.

Proud Muslimah

credit to : http://www.islamicinspiration.org

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T.E.A.R.S

Sitting here

Drowning in my tears

No one knows

How I feel

No one cares

If I disappear

So...

I'm drowning in my tears

Crying my heart out to you

Can't you hear

Can't you tell

I'm depressed

All by your will

All you do is put me down

Put me in this state

Just for your fun

No one cares

If I disappear

So...

I'm drowning in my tears

Crying my heart out to you

Can't you hear

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#IAmMuslimah ?

When you are thinking that you are down, think Allah swt beside you, never leaves you, always comforts and consoles you. When you are crying, think that a little of tears is valuable and priceless. Ignored all the bad talks, if you want to change, change for HIM. Indeed HE is the best planner

MUSLIMAH~

I want to be like flowers that spread the fragrance

even for those who crushed them

I want to be like sun that shine persistently

and whoever stare at the treasure illumination

will bow down

I want to be like plants that always granted us

fruits even always being throw out the stones

how come ? how do I will being as honour

as Saidatina Khadijah?

How can I own the pure and innocent heart

as the last prophet (nabi Muhammad s.a.w)?

what shall I do to forbear in this life and be strong

as Nabi Ayub as ?

dear Allah, please grants the strength and godly

in finding the ultimate goal in this world life

do show the true ways and permanent my faith

in facing all problems and fibrous

do rewards me guidance and nur when i am either

miserably falling or success in this temporary life

i am just an ordinary and humble girl who live in

modernization world who prefer to be as honor as

Khadijah, as gorgeous as Zulaikha,

 as persevere as Fatimah in endure the obstacles in life or as righteous as Aisyah.

INSYAALLAH . MAY ALLAH EASE THE PATH I CHOOSE TO BE.

MAY THE BARRIERS BURN UP THE DESIRE TO BE A GOOD MUSLIMAH.

Abu Hurairah (رضي الله عنه) narrated that the Prophet (صلى الله عليه وسلم) said,
“Verily, Allah does not look at your appearance or wealth, but rather He looks at your heart and deeds.”

— Sahih Muslim, Book 32, Number 6221

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# This article contributed by DAHLIA IMANI (UIAM) / Blog in blog akuislam.com . May Allah Bless. Jazakallah khairan Kathira :)

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